Shop More Submit  Join Login
About Deviant Artist Member MeemzerUnknown Groups :iconchildrenofelahrairah: ChildrenOfElAhrairah
Hoi, Hoi U Embleer Hrair!
Recent Activity
Deviant for 4 Years
Needs Premium Membership
Statistics 74 Deviations 1,595 Comments 4,735 Pageviews

Newest Deviations



Cassie by Meemzer
Remember earlier this year when I got a puppy? Well, she is all grown up now. I took these photos of my dog while we were in town one day. I thought they were nice enough photos that I could post them. My dog is named Cassie. Her papa was a red-and-white Border Collie, and her mamma was a blue merle Australian Shepherd; she is a 50-50 cross. If you are considering one do your research first, a Border Collie (even a mix) is not a breed for everyone. That being said, Cassie is a great dog. She is extremely smart, obedient, sweet, and fun. Also, she is beautiful! 
Shinlai Adoption Application--Sept 2014 by Meemzer
Shinlai Adoption Application--Sept 2014
This is my application for Shinlai Adoptable #1.
Thank you for considering my application.

Shinlai species (c) AlanaRoseheart

Name: Docia Sisu Etheldred

Pronunciation:  Dough-SHA / SEE-sue / eh-THEL-dred

Gender: Female

Age: 19 (Adolescent)

Birth Season: Winter, 1851

Shinlai Classification: Common


- Body: Silky
- Tail: Long

Fur color: Red & Cream

Eye color: Turquoise

Horns & Claws: Ebony, touched with turquoise

Height: 6' 2”

Length: 15' (from nose to tail)

Weight: 2,870 lbs

Mask: Carved out of wood, and lacquered black. Docia's family has a tradition of staining their masks with black lacquer then adding beautifully colored designs over the top. Docia cannot decide how she wants to paint her mask, so it has been blank since she earned her it.

Allegiance: Follower of Dailah

Element: Light
-Abilities: Docia has the ability to create and manipulate lightning, much to her disappointment. She is only beginning to learn to use her element and due to her fear and lack of confidence, her is skills are quite underdeveloped. But there is more to this young light shinlai than meets the eye. Unbeknownst to her (and in spite of her apparent ineptitude) Docia has an exceptionally strong link with her element and could learn to master both lightning and energy—a rare talent. HOWEVER, she is no where near accomplishing this: she can hardly control a bolt of lightning. First she has to overcome her own insecurities and develop the talents she does have, rather than trying to fight with and change them.

-Positive Traits: Curious, Selfless, Kind, Idealist, Cheerful
-Negative Traits: Self-Critical, Insecure, Indecisive, Impulsive
At a glance Docia is a polite, soft-spoken shinlai adolescent. She is bright, and an optimist. She loves to find beautiful things, and explore the world. She cares deeply about others, and sincerely wants to help those around her. She is a thoughtful friend and loyal companion. However, she is hampered by insecurities and can be very critical of herself. She is willing to stand up for others, but rarely stands up for herself. She struggles to accept herself as she is, rather than comparing herself to the ideal picture of who she should be in her mind. The emotion she struggles with most is disappointment. If things go wrong, it is hard for her to let go of how things should have gone. 

Brief History:
Docia was born on a peaceful night, high in the mountains. Her parents, the mother a light Shinlai, the father a fire Shinlai, were joyous at her birth. She was the third healthy pup to be born to their family. Her parents were affectionate and attentive, her sisters playful and good-natured. Docia had a fortunate up-bringing. Her parents belonged to a clan of related Shinlai living in the mountains, near the human city of Maia. She regularly played with her sisters and her cousins alike, scampering across frozen peaks and through her clan members' dens. Her family’s clan shared a mutually beneficial relationship with humans: the Shinlai in Docia’s family helped the humans to tame the unforgiving mountain wilderness, and in return the humans would provide goods to the group of Shinlai. Rarely were there quarrels between the Shinlai and humans in the area, and Docia spent a great deal of time around them. This has led Docia to have a good standing and general trust for humans.

Docia’s mother's strength, as the element of light is divided into two portions, was with energy—specifically healing, and Docia often accompanied her mother to the town, where it was her mother’s business to relieve the sick and injured. Docia so admired her mother's abilities, that she wanted nothing more than to be a healer when she grew up. She could just imagine it—she would provide warmth and comfort to others in need. She could use her abilities to make a difference in the world around her. It was something that she could picture so clearly.

Docia was a clever pup—a quick learner, and eager to please. She learned a great deal from watching and mimicking her elder sisters. Her parents were proud of her and knew that she was developing quickly for her age, but Docia surprised them all by awakening her element at the young age of fourteen—even before her twin sisters, who were a year and a half her senior. Her family was very excited for her, and proud to have a pup with such a powerful ability. Admittedly, her sisters were a little jealous—but they loved their little sister, and overcame their jealousy in time. Docia on the other hand, was horrified. For although she was a light Shinlai, like her mother as she had hoped, it turned out that her natural abilities were not with energy but rather they lent themselves more to deal with lightning. Since awakening her element, Docia has been at odds with herself, as she firmly believes that her talent with lightning goes against whom she is as a person.

Docia never mentioned this internal struggle and the conflicted feelings that she was going through to her family. They seemed so pleased; she worried that sharing her fear would disappoint them. Docia avoided using her element, and years passed after its initial awakening. As a result, Docia did not develop beyond the raw skill she had as a fourteen-year-old. She held very little control over her lightning, and much to her dismay, sometimes she uses it when she does not intend. In addition to fearing it, Docia sees no value in her talent—what good is the ability to command lightning when compared with the versatility and usefulness of energy? With energy she could have been a source of comfort for those in need. Instead she felt was stuck with an elemental power that is only harsh and destructive.

Like all shinlai, Docia was given her mask when her element manifested itself. Docia's family had a tradition of decorating their masks in a rather specific manner: carved wood, lacquered black, and then painted with a wide range of bright colors, by the owner. Some members of the clan had very ornate, elegant designs, while others had simple but appealing designs—nevertheless, they all followed the same pattern. Docia was at a loss. What could she paint on her mask? Most of her clan-mates painted things that were reminiscent of their element, but Docia wanted nothing to do with her element. Unsure of what to do, Docia left her mask plain black. Her mother reassured her that is was natural to take great care with the design of her first mask, and that many others took time before they painted theirs.

Docia's mother lovingly attempted to help her daughter develop her abilities with lightning, but Docia pretended to fail every time. When Docia turned nineteen, and was still quite weak with the use of her element, her father made a suggestion. Hoping to help his daughter, who he believed was striving to unlock her power rather than hiding from it, he advised her to leave the mountain and find another light shinlai who could tutor her—one who had mastered lightning. This gave Docia an idea—and she eagerly agreed. Unaware of the Darkblood Revolution, their attack on Talin, or any of the aftermath, Docia's family prepared for her to strike out into the wider world.

With her parent's well-wishing, and her clan's blessing, Docia descended the mountain and headed off into the world to find a teacher—not a master of lightning, like her family had supposed, but a master of energy instead. One who could teach her to develop the ability to heal—not use the pointless ability to command lightning. Drawn in by the flow of human travelers, and dreams of a coast she's never seen, Docia made her way towards Norport. Docia had never before left the mountain peaks, and knows little of the political upheaval going on with the Darkbloods, or anything else for that matter. She is merely seeking for a mentor of healing to teach and guide her.

Misc Information:
-Though she is young now, and relatively small, she will eventually grow to be a large shinlai. 

-Docia had several human friends, and was sad to leave them when she went into the world. She learned a game similar to soccer, with a ball that had to be kicked and carried to goals to win points. She is still plays this game given the opportunity, and enjoys other human games involving a ball. 

-Docia also enjoys playing with domestic human pets. She is particularly fond of dogs. 


-Food: Venison and dried fruits

-Color: Turquoise (Her eyes are her favorite feature)

-Place: Mountains, or up high

Wedding Gift by Meemzer
Wedding Gift
This is a wedding gift that I did for a friend of mine. I printed it on canvas and had it wrapped around a frame, so they could hang it on the wall if they wanted. The quote was said by Lao Tzu, but I modified it slighting to fit on the piece. I am very pleased with how it turned out. 
I'm having an interesting evening. I am in one of those moods--The moods where I feel disconnected, disjointed and distant. I want to get in a car and just drive away--drive, and drive, and drive until the road wears out the tires and I run out of gas. Then I want to get out of the car and walk on--walk, and walk, and walk until I find the edge of everything. Then I want to stand on the edge and throw rocks over the side. The world is too big, and I am too small. I don't know where my place is. I don't know how I fit. Life feels like six different puzzles all jammed into the same crumpled box. 

And the thing is, I shouldn't feel like this. I have so much, so many things that other people dream of and hope for--a good family, an education, food, shelter, security, long dark eyelashes... I really do have so much and on paper I am happy. Why do I have to convince myself that I am actually happy? My strange mood is compounded by guilt rising in the back of my throat. 

My thoughts are vague, and watery. It is hard to put into words my mind. Why do I feel like such a failure? I don't know. Why do I feel chipped? Like that one plate my mom has in the matching set of ten, that one plate that got dropped--yeah, that is sort of how I feel, I think. Why is my best not good enough for myself? Why do I bite back disappointment when I look at myself? Why do I always pick, and pick, and pick? Why can't I be content? Why can't I like myself? I don't know. 

I suppose it is just discouragement I'm wrestling with. I will be fine, this mood I'm in will pass. I'll probably just delete this post when I am not feeling this way anymore. I don't like posting inner thoughts and feelings on the internet very often, the truth is that I don't always know how to deal with my emotions very well and it embarrasses me. I try to handle myself well, but I'm still the tactless, sensitive, insecure twelve year old girl that I haven't managed to grow out of yet.  

Maybe that is why I fantasize about running away and throwing rocks. 


Meemzer's Profile Picture

...And than an owl.


AdCast - Ads from the Community



Add a Comment:
Trueblue-Lua Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the :+fav: on Donate Button, Laytonmobile, and I'm not obsessed!
Meemzer Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2014
You are welcome! I love your almost paper-cut painting style. It is darling! 
Trueblue-Lua Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Oh thanks I like it too :3
DubuGomdori Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2014
⦁    Please join us in this feast we the Tyrells have prepared for our honored guests. But first let us check if your name is on our list. . . .Guards  arrest this deviant! Thank you for the fave though,
TheReach_Feast_DubuGomdori by DubuGomdori
Meemzer Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2014
Haha--you're welcome ^u^ It's a nice perspective piece. 
SkySinger92 Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
So sorry this is a bit late, but thanks a bundle for favoriting my little Brachiosaurus ami! :D (Big Grin)  I'm so glad you like him!~ ^_^
Meemzer Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2014
You are welcome! <3 
IrisHime Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2014  Student Digital Artist - Jackknife!!
BlazeDeNosferatu Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday Meemz!!! I hope it was a wonderful day full of celebration!!! :'D
Add a Comment: